I couldn't go to sleep tonight. I tried sleeping after my 7 mile run. But I couldn't stop thinking. I couldn't stop thinking about this article my friend posted from Inc. Magazine, "The Psychological Price of Entrepreneurship."
I couldn't stop thinking about the potential failure of ALMas, of being incapable of ultimately getting everything together, of ultimately lacking the ability to lead and get something meaningful and big done.
I kept thinking about the possibility of failure. Of resentment. Of sadness and disappointment that would engulf me. I kept thinking, I'm not done yet. I haven't put my best foot forward. If I fail, it's on me. No one else.
And then I got up and started working, getting work done. I had to find all the books we would need for a standardized set of books to start our after school program. First I began with Eric Carle and moved my way through others, like Rikki Tikki Tambo (awesome, b-t-dubs). Then I moved on to bilingual and Spanish books. Got them too!
I mapped out local grocery stories, or " las mercaderias" as they are called in the Hispanic neighborhoods. Looks like my team and I will be going on foot to these locations over the weekend and setting up meetings as well as hopefully getting some snack commitments for our kids!
But now I feel better. I took control. I adapted to the situation at hand. I believed in my abilities and my vision. And I continued, persisted.
If there's one thing I've learned over the course of "Creating ALMas," it's this fundamental key to change and impact:
ADAPT. BELIEVE. PERSIST.